Natural action does not always come easy

I caught a thief standing nearby the window at night in my home. I might be around 11 or 12 years old. Only the tobacco, iron, and some less important things were placed nearby the window. I was shocked as deep as my voice in my throat, and I couldn't scream. I could feel the efforts to throw the air out and, what was thrusting it into my throat back, no idea! I was tense for my helplessness, and I can't recall if I was angry at my inability to scream, but I remember I was frustrated at the moment because I was not able to do which is the easiest thing 'voice out'. In this context, maybe the pressure and fear made me shut up, but the thing to mind is I was the least scared for my life. I don't know what I was scared of or for... The thief's face was covered in the black colored cloth as the dreams could not make a new face. 

This dream came surfacing to my mind while I was reading Crime and Punishment where Lizaveta did not scream and did not do "natural action" to protect her face when she found her sister's dead body and her murderer with the axe. It was a thing of seconds. I can't analyze because I don't understand a thing. I have to continue reading this novel from here.

It also brings me a memory of reading a Hindi story in the newspaper when I used to go to school. I am still not sure if that was a story or some lesson. I couldn't remember all the details as it has been a long time since reading it. A guy noticed an ant crawling around another person's ear, and he didn't speak up as he expected it to go away or ... I am guessing the reasons here as I couldn't remember exactly. I only could recall is he expected things to be good without doing anything. However, the ant crawled in his ear. He didn't give a voice, and he has narrated this piece which indicates he has regrets.  

It is a simple thing to do, or maybe it isn't. 

Comments