Work

When the uncertainties kick in, I always tricked myself into believing, the mind is another, a separate entity. I made it say, "I'm there for you". It made me convinced, Someone is going to be supportive in the future, and I feel so strong. At the same time, I recall the character saying "The only person I can count on is me" (emphasizing me). I love how he said that. However, he is not my favorite character. 

I feel the days are slipping into the fog. A lot of chaos is going on, and I can't sort them out. All I am doing is escaping, putting on my earphones, and there is no clear vision. I hope the fog fades away soon, and I can organize the things. How can I be honest with myself when I always escape at the hint of anxiety?

Every day, the strength varies. Someday, even to pass a smile seems like a big deal when I feel so distant from the people, or when I overcome that anxious feeling when a lot of people are surrounding me, or when I tell my shortcomings to the trustworthy people, or when I talk to the people about the random things once I feel happy and confident.