Why existence?

One day I meet God.
I dreamt asking him
Why this earth?
My existence has an end too.
I dreamt asking him.
Is it meaningful to come and go?
I heard “fewer relations, less pain”
Why much people around me?
I can not love only in the fear of losing him.
I heard “all things are the illusion”.
But this process sounds not less than an illusion.
Do I have to live alone in the crowd?
I accept on losing I feel pain.
Why painful world exist?
I trust you, Lord! You would have reason
I request to fill me with that. I am in search.
My mind is bubbling.
From the small vision, I say No Earth, No People, and No Pain.